Tuesday, August 26, 2014
this song by Conor Oberst is tragic and funny and while I’m not dying, it captured exactly how I feel. night 7 in le hopital.

Don’t know when it’s day or when it’s night
All I ever see are florescent lights
I don’t want to die in this hospital
You got to take me back outside
They give me all these flowers and these big balloons
But I don’t wanna stay in this little room
I don’t want to die in this hospital
I don’t want to die

Are the stars still in the sky?
Is that fat moon on the rise?
Feel the earth’s against my feet
As the cold wind calls for me
I don’t want to die in this hospital
You got to take me back outside

this song by Conor Oberst is tragic and funny and while I’m not dying, it captured exactly how I feel. night 7 in le hopital.

Don’t know when it’s day or when it’s night
All I ever see are florescent lights
I don’t want to die in this hospital
You got to take me back outside
They give me all these flowers and these big balloons
But I don’t wanna stay in this little room
I don’t want to die in this hospital
I don’t want to die

Are the stars still in the sky?
Is that fat moon on the rise?
Feel the earth’s against my feet
As the cold wind calls for me
I don’t want to die in this hospital
You got to take me back outside

California.

hospitalized for 6 days, and
still I linger.
I call, and change plans,
break leases before they’ve begun.
you’re too sick to move right now.
perhaps this disease has won

Friday, August 22, 2014

imathers:

khealywu:

dragonheartedrabbit:

"Waste of good ammo. It’s my privilege to buy you a replacement box."

"All self-respecting whites have a moral responsibility to support our growing number of martyrs to the failed experiment called diversity."

"I thank all Police, you are the ‘Thin Blue Line’ protecting normal Americans from aggressive and entitled primitive savages. America is surely at the tipping point."

Just a few quotes (in case it’s hard to read) from that collection of donation messages for Darren Wilson.

Does anyone else want to say it’s not about race?

Holy fucking shit.

I’d ask whether these horrible excuses for human beings realize that this is essentially making murdering black people into some kind of fucked up career choice, but. Y’know. That’s exactly what they’re all trying to do.

This makes me so fucking sick.

Thursday, August 21, 2014
#tbt nyu. 2010. years have passed but little has changed. i’m tired and drugged and it’s hard to type or respond to everyone but thank you, thank you. 💙💜

#tbt nyu. 2010. years have passed but little has changed. i’m tired and drugged and it’s hard to type or respond to everyone but thank you, thank you. 💙💜

yesterday’s walk to the park feels like a week ago ::: we walked down my favorite street and sadie looked up at the trees and said “broccoli!” ::: hopefully I’ll be outta the clink later today. thank you for all the love.

yesterday’s walk to the park feels like a week ago ::: we walked down my favorite street and sadie looked up at the trees and said “broccoli!” ::: hopefully I’ll be outta the clink later today. thank you for all the love.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014
odinsblog:

The New Jim Crow
1. Ferguson, Missouri has a population of approximately 21,000 people — roughly 75% of those residents are Black
2. The Ferguson police department has around 530 cops —less than 5 of them are Black
3. Ferguson had *zero* homicides for all of 2014 —until Michael Brown was murdered by Darrin Wilson
4. Things you should know: Five Myths About Black-on-Black Crime
5. Michael Brown was 18yrs old and was about to begin college. Brown had no criminal record, and despite the Ferguson PD’s smear campaign, Mike Brown PAID FOR the cigars —those facts are all important and should be known, but even if Brown was a high school dropout with prior arrests who stole the cigars, 1) it wouldn’t have made his life any less valuable, 2) we have a court system and those are not capital offenses and 3) it doesn’t change the fact that the cop who killed him, Darren Wilson, had no idea about Brown’s personal history when he executed Brown. Wilson saw only a Black teen deemed either “too uppity” or “suspicious” because of his skin color
6. Five examples: The Militarization of the police
7. It’s deeply Institutional: Police view Black Children As Less Innocent
8. So please - don’t get it twisted


Read this! Good lord.

odinsblog:

The New Jim Crow

1. Ferguson, Missouri has a population of approximately 21,000 people — roughly 75% of those residents are Black

2. The Ferguson police department has around 530 cops —less than 5 of them are Black

3. Ferguson had *zero* homicides for all of 2014 —until Michael Brown was murdered by Darrin Wilson

4. Things you should know: Five Myths About Black-on-Black Crime

5. Michael Brown was 18yrs old and was about to begin college. Brown had no criminal record, and despite the Ferguson PD’s smear campaign, Mike Brown PAID FOR the cigars —those facts are all important and should be known, but even if Brown was a high school dropout with prior arrests who stole the cigars, 1) it wouldn’t have made his life any less valuable, 2) we have a court system and those are not capital offenses and 3) it doesn’t change the fact that the cop who killed him, Darren Wilson, had no idea about Brown’s personal history when he executed Brown. Wilson saw only a Black teen deemed either “too uppity” or “suspicious” because of his skin color

6. Five examples: The Militarization of the police

7. It’s deeply Institutional: Police view Black Children As Less Innocent

8. So please - don’t get it twisted

Read this! Good lord.

I just watched Dead Poets Society for the first time. It’s been hard for me to sit through movies and even read books as I’ve wandered in and out of a deep depression over the past couple years. I went from reading 70 books in 2012 to 25 in 2013! 

I watched DPS and HER the other day. I’m hopeful I am nearing the end of the mind melt that depression and illness often render. I imagine both films will stick with me. They reminded me of the necessity of entertainment, of how we need to be lifted out of our own messy lives for an hour or two…

I just watched Dead Poets Society for the first time. It’s been hard for me to sit through movies and even read books as I’ve wandered in and out of a deep depression over the past couple years. I went from reading 70 books in 2012 to 25 in 2013!

I watched DPS and HER the other day. I’m hopeful I am nearing the end of the mind melt that depression and illness often render. I imagine both films will stick with me. They reminded me of the necessity of entertainment, of how we need to be lifted out of our own messy lives for an hour or two…

Thursday, August 14, 2014
sickness does not take vacations:::enjoy it anyway:::I have been:::but today’s the worst day. just swallowed some Zofran and Dilaudid and hoping for the best. #chronicillness #lupus #t1d #honestlyilookridiculous #outlivingit #springsteenstyle

sickness does not take vacations:::enjoy it anyway:::I have been:::but today’s the worst day. just swallowed some Zofran and Dilaudid and hoping for the best. #chronicillness #lupus #t1d #honestlyilookridiculous #outlivingit #springsteenstyle

Tuesday, August 12, 2014
August 12, Wolfeboro, New Hampshire.

This is our first family vacation in 6 years. Time and work and weddings and baby kept us from getting away, but I’ll admit a piece of it maaaaybe has to do with a fight between my brother and me over where to go way back in 2009. He wanted a damn cruise (ugh) and I wanted the Grand Canyon (brillz) and we fought and yelled at the dinner table, and my dad was so appalled by what brats we were that he rightfully cancelled that year’s trip. Oops.

Since then, so much has changed, including the best addition this family’s seen since ‘86: #dopeniece. And so this trip to New Hampshire is both a chance and a choice to reinforce our family core. It’s hard to get away as we age into adults,  but quality time away together reminds us that as close as we are at home, a vacation is essential for our health. Choosing to be together is meaningful, and important, and I doubt we’ll ever wait six years again.

August 12, Wolfeboro, New Hampshire.

This is our first family vacation in 6 years. Time and work and weddings and baby kept us from getting away, but I’ll admit a piece of it maaaaybe has to do with a fight between my brother and me over where to go way back in 2009. He wanted a damn cruise (ugh) and I wanted the Grand Canyon (brillz) and we fought and yelled at the dinner table, and my dad was so appalled by what brats we were that he rightfully cancelled that year’s trip. Oops.

Since then, so much has changed, including the best addition this family’s seen since ‘86: #dopeniece. And so this trip to New Hampshire is both a chance and a choice to reinforce our family core. It’s hard to get away as we age into adults, but quality time away together reminds us that as close as we are at home, a vacation is essential for our health. Choosing to be together is meaningful, and important, and I doubt we’ll ever wait six years again.

I’m lying next to Sadie, reading stories about Robin Williams on Tumblr with tears slowly rolling down my cheek. He was a giant to all of us; the night I saw him drop in on my friend’s comedy set remains a highlight. How lucky we were…

Anyway, I’m laying here, trying to coax my brain into sleep when I look over and see Sadie’s legs propped up and crossed just like mine, in this weird way I sleep. I love her. She is my light, the reason I keep going.

I downloaded Aladdin. I can’t wait to show her.

I’m lying next to Sadie, reading stories about Robin Williams on Tumblr with tears slowly rolling down my cheek. He was a giant to all of us; the night I saw him drop in on my friend’s comedy set remains a highlight. How lucky we were…

Anyway, I’m laying here, trying to coax my brain into sleep when I look over and see Sadie’s legs propped up and crossed just like mine, in this weird way I sleep. I love her. She is my light, the reason I keep going.

I downloaded Aladdin. I can’t wait to show her.

Monday, August 11, 2014
It’s as easy as this. And it saved my life. Get help it you need it. We all deserve it. #ripRobinWilliams

It’s as easy as this. And it saved my life. Get help it you need it. We all deserve it. #ripRobinWilliams

Saturday, August 9, 2014
The comments, the messages, the email, the real mail. Thank you. I head to New Hampshire tonight for our first family vacation in years, and I feel lucky to have them, but all of you here too. Strangers and friends alike, so many of you have been a comfort to me the past couple of years. Thank you. Enjoy the rest of summer. 💜💙

The comments, the messages, the email, the real mail. Thank you. I head to New Hampshire tonight for our first family vacation in years, and I feel lucky to have them, but all of you here too. Strangers and friends alike, so many of you have been a comfort to me the past couple of years. Thank you. Enjoy the rest of summer. 💜💙

I bought this shirt off Zulily for William and when I saw it again, I got one for Sadie. On the back, in tour date format, it lists the date each president was sworn in. My greatest sorrow is that it does not come in adult sizing #historynerd #zulily #dogwood #tshirtobsessed

I bought this shirt off Zulily for William and when I saw it again, I got one for Sadie. On the back, in tour date format, it lists the date each president was sworn in. My greatest sorrow is that it does not come in adult sizing #historynerd #zulily #dogwood #tshirtobsessed

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Direct quote from William, age 2.5

ipromisetowrite:

(In tune of Let It Go, which big sister is singing) “Le’ ih go, le’ ih go, I don’t want you sing this anymore!”

My godson, ladies and gentlemen.

This is the kid who I had to pay a quarter so he would take a picture with me.

He’s brilliant.